littlefaeriegirl’s blog

resolution number one:

to stop holding on to things that arent going to happen

i dont know what will happen now, but i had a good weeked

one day i'll fall for someone who is older than 25 and/or doesnt already have a girlfriend

i wanna believe again
i wanna believe that there are better things in store for me
that there is something more for me
i wanna believe again
i wanna be free to be and dream and be awake
and know its possible to shake this thing away
cos i know
i know
i know that it exists
and i know
i know
that one day i could feel your lips again

what if true love is not a story thats made up and told to dreamers.
maybe its the truest thing you feel.
what if what you felt was just so natural you didnt notice, expecting something special, hoping for more when all you ever needed was right there in front of you.
if only you had the courage to reach out and touch it.
the fore thought to grab it and not let go.
its only when its gone that you realise what a huge gap it leaves.
what an emptiness really feels like.
and when the one thing you know fits that space perfectly is on another page, completeing someone elses puzzle, thats when you start to wonder.
can i wait?
can i hold on until she's stopped playing?
i can. 
i can wait.
i will wait.
i will wait for you.
i need you in my life.
we are two people who are meant to be together.
there will always be a part of me missing until you come back and hold my hand, to make me complete

im lonely

im not sure of what i feel for people

i miss him

i miss him too, but i miss what we used to be together

i miss loving someone so clearly and so much that nothing else entered your mind

i miss the excitement of hearing your car in the driveway

i miss being able to reach out and touch you

i miss being held

i miss being smiled at with love in your eyes instead of 'this is the way it has to be'

i miss falling asleep without feeling the need to text someone...anyone...just so there's somebody with me

i miss me

so the request has been made that i put finger to keyboard and do something with the place. well, what do you think? i planted some flowers, there are pictures up on the wall, books in the shelf and a nice selction of music to listen to. i'm sure i'll get more books and cds soon, i always seem to.
perhaps im not in the right frame of mind for writing tonight though. or maybe, im in the perfect frame of mind.
there are so many people who i miss. some are so far away they're on the other side of the world. some are less than a kilometre away. some are inside me.
i dont know how to reach any of them. be that physically , mentally or emotionally, they're all too far away.

when there is pain in a five year old's eyes. when he says he wishes you slept in the same bed as mummy and lived in the same house. thats when i cant keep the tears inside. thats when you should comfort, not run away and scold.

when there's a call in the middle of the night...you asked what was wrong, and i said i was fine and you knew that i lied so you asked again. i dont want to call you and cry. knowing how far away you are makes it hurt all the more.

sometimes i love you so much, i hate you

What did you think you would never ever do... but did? 
Submitted by Murky.  

love him when he didnt love me